“I’m Weak, I’m Sorry”- Here is Why Hana Kimura Committed Suicide

The pro-wrestling world is shocked at the sudden demise of young starlet Hana Kimura. The Japanese pro-wrestler took her own life, amidst a barrage of hate and negativity sent her way online. Although Hana should not become the symbol of suicides due to cyberbullying, her unfortunate death is a grim reminder to us all, that no personality, as bulletproof or immune as they may seem, is impervious to hatred.

Hana Kimura was taken away too early.

At a mere 22 years old, Kimura had a long and storied career ahead of her. She was in great hands as a talented wrestler, learning from her mother, who was also a pro-wrestling legend in her own right. All signs pointed towards Hana becoming a huge star, like Asuka or Kairi Sane, who blossomed in the WWE. 

Hana was a part of a Netflix reality series named Terrace House. This show grouped in eminent celebrities in Japanese culture and expected them to live with one another. This show peeled off the layers of fakeness from the celebrities and exposed their personalities for what it actually was. Hana was undoubtedly one of those individuals, who had opened up on the show.

The hate had started pouring in from so many parts of the internet towards Kimura. The 22-year-old probably felt helpless in the midst of all the hate.

Kimura took to social media to express her last few thoughts in a post, which is heartbreaking to look at now.

The Japanese text roughly translates to “I love you, have fun. I’m sorry”

She also put up a note on Twitter, which is even more heartbreaking to read after her suicide. “Nearly 100 frank opinions every day. I couldn’t deny that I was hurt. I’m dead. Thank you for giving me a mother. It was a life I wanted to be loved. Thank you to everyone who supported me. I love it. I’m weak, I’m sorry. I don’t want to be a human anymore. It was a life I wanted to be loved.” Hana wrote.

Prayers and condolences from Hana’s peers

WWE Superstar and RAW Women’s Champion Asuka reminisced on her relationship with Hana, and her own experiences with online hate. “I don’t know where to put this sad feeling and I can’t find the words to say … I remember when Hana was still a little girl, she always came to the venue with her grandmother.”

Asuka spoke about her difficult times dealing with self-doubt and depression, “I got a lot of emails every day for several years before I moved to the US, telling me not to die, break female wrestling, leave this industry. And today, I was wondering if you couldn’t make a comment even though other players are making comments. I’m too keen on my sense of justice and I don’t realize that I’m the same. This is scary”

It would be sad to remember Hana Kimura as anything other than the bubbly, happy, talented performer she was. But ignoring the circumstances surrounding her death would mean that nothing would change, which is equally bad.

But for now, we can make do with Hana’s last words to the world.

“Thank you everyone, I love you. Bye”