“How Can I Move On?”- Dr DisRespect Opens Up on Twitch Ban

Dr DisRespect being banned from Twitch came as a shock to everyone in the industry. It was definitely a difficult time for Doc, considering he was never given a reason for the same. A lot has gone down since then, and he has now started streaming on YouTube after a long absence. Now, he has finally opened up on his ban.

In a recent video on YouTube, he spoke about the impact the ban had on him and said, “I’ve played sports my whole life. I’ve been in high-pressure situations… with a game on the line, streaming in front of a ton of people with a game on the line… Man, we’ve lived a good life. But I’ve never dealt with anxiety before.”

Doc has spoken about this earlier as well. Following his ban, he took a month-long sabbatical from streaming. When he finally decided to break his silence, he told The Washington Post that he had been “dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety.” The ban definitely had a huge emotional impact on Doc.

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“I’m having a hard time dealing with it” – Dr DisRespect speaks about his anxiety

In the video, he also said, “We’ve overcome a lot of ‘stuff’ in the past and we got to such a good point ladies and gentlemen, Champions Club. I’m talking all cylinders firing… feeling incredible, and everything. And to have that taken away from you and to not know anything about it. I didn’t know anything about it and I wasn’t told anything. Everything we built, all the eggs in one bucket just taken away. The fact that I’m here on YouTube, it has been a fantastic return. But my anxiety levels are so high that they come in these huge waves, and I’m having a hard time dealing with it.”

Doc has made his living off streaming. He was (and probably still is) one of the biggest personalities on Twitch. Many fans even said that he was the face of Twitch. He had built a strong fan following that he called ‘Champions Club’ and rose to fame with them by his side. One can only imagine what it must feel like to have all that taken away, without a heads-up.

“There’s nothing I can do about it” – Doc on the reason for his Twitch ban

Doc further said, “It was taken away from us. And to not know why…A lot of people think that the numbers are fantastic and they really are crazy. We’ve come back before through adversity because I accepted responsibility for it. But there was also an opportunity to come back. What do I accept in this case? I don’t accept anything. And there’s nothing I can do about it.”

Twitch still hasn’t given a reason for the ban, and there have been multiple theories that have made the rounds. Towards the end of the video, he said, “To think that I’m here and I’m moving on, I’m not. I can’t. How can I? How can I move on?”

This has probably had a much deeper emotional impact on Dr DisRespect than what meets the eye. An occurrence of this magnitude would have left anybody disturbed. To see that Doc is doing great despite his recent hardships is great. He has been doing his best to move on from the event and is on his way to once again become the living embodiment of ‘Violence, Speed, Momentum”.